ThE StORy oF a GirL

2007-06-27T17:00:00.000+08:00

OoO Went to sign contract yesterday *headache* so many things to do, so many things to sign and so many things to read! I took home a file full of papers!

Long time never meet up with them and *OH My GoD* I spent quite a bit on food and on ktv yesterday. Since it's once in a while it's ok but I don't think I can do that next month cos I'm gonna be broke next month till Aug then my pay comes. Chats went on and on and on.

Must set a goal after I start off again *save save save*!!!!!!!

2007-06-25T16:28:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Bintan yesterday. It was a tired but fun and enjoyable short trip. We spend our time at the beach, the swimming pool that is just 20 metres away from our room, the jacuzzi at our balcony and of cos our nights mahjonging with Baileys at the Angsana Suite. Feel like going back again!

We spend our 2nd day at the sea. My first time snorkelling in the middle of the sea, it was beautiful with colourful fishes, corals and reefs. Had difficulty breathing cos we could oni breathe thru our mouth and then the heavy rain came just in time to go back to the seaside again. No choice but to stay in our room for another 2 hours then went back to Jet Skiing. OooO was fun and of cos very fun and I play till too fierce that wenqi fell into the sea hahahahaha. I want to go Jet Skiing again!

Next was Banana Boat with (according to the professional) biggest size last of cos wenqi last hahahaha. then the first capsize. Weird everybody fell but the last one didn't fall maybe he was too heavy to fall into the sea. The next capsize was a fierce one, everybody fell and somebody hit me on my face! Must be Spencer !

We didn't rest and continued with ATV. The instructor was the same person who brought us to snorkelling and he's very nice he brought us to the long journey ATV ride take photo for us and brought us to his friend's house to drink coconut, a super big and heavy coconut. It suppose to be 30 mins tour but he broguht us for the 1 h 30 mins tour! I think I cannot control the thing well but somebody made himself dirty cos he purposely went on a different route with us which is going thru the super muddy place. Lucky for Spencer he didn't go close to Wenqi otherwise his face will be full of mud hahaha.

Then Mahjong and chiong finish the Baileys. Super tired and shag! Next day we checked out and went for Go-Kart. Quite expensive but we wanted to experience it. I think me and jiahui were scared of crashing that is why spencer and wenqi lapped us many many times. After that we went pasar Oleh Oleh but there is nothing there to see or buy. So the driver drove us back to hotel.

Jiahui and I wanted to go Spa but fully booked in the end we decided to change into swimming costumes and dip into the cooling swimming pool till the bus comes at 630pm to go to the factory outlet just beside the Ferry terminal.

We really had lots of fun, jokes, lame stuff and laughters for the 3 whole days. I can't stop laughing at the Laughing Red Spencer at the Mahjong table opposite me hahaha. Hope we will have another trip like this end of the year!

2007-05-25T17:09:00.000+08:00

I'm going for Holidays soon! yeah no work for 1 week! Talking about work. HAIZ!

I got short-listed I hope they want me though I don't know if I will like it but sherine sounds happy working there. I hope to be one of them cos it sounds not bad working for them and alot of people told me to go ahead cos it's a big company that is worth working for. Well, maybe I will like it? I'm quite sure I will learn even more.

I'm leaving for HKG(again) tmr early morning hope everything goes well. So many things to prepare I hope i don't miss out anything.

2007-05-14T09:58:00.000+08:00

Sad to hear that 2 Singaporeans died in the jet crash at taiwan. 1 just celebrated his birthday 2 days before the accident and the other was about to celebrate on the 23 May. Both went to taiwan for only a week. Another 2 are in critical conditions, suffered more than 40% burns. Let's pray for them.

My deep sympathy and sorrows goes out to those who were involved in the crash.

Life is really unpredictable, we won't know what will happen to us anytime at anywhere. They did not do anything wrong. They died and injured because of others mistake.

I put myself in their shoes, my heart cries out for them.

2007-03-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

Finally got confirmed for my job already. So far still ok hope I can stay here for long.

Some people knows how to say that 'U got father, mother, I also have' so it means that "U've got feelings, I don't have?" But when they speak they speak so though they have parents but I don't have. Only know how to criticize others but not opening eyes wide enough to look at oneself, no wonder this kind of people gets all kinds of critics. In other words, retribution. I may not be a good person when these thoughts run through my mind but at least I didn't criticize him which I can choose to do so.

Always remember look at yourself before U speak of others especially people who are down in everyway be it money, frenship, relationship, career, thinking or whatever. I may not be perfect or not even good or acceptable but at least I'm surviving in almost everyway. I don't criticize others in front of everyone else unless he's really that bad. It may be a joke but some may take it seriously so one has to be careful with words and situation if he/she meant to joke about it.

So what if I can't take critics at least I know what critics I should take what I should not. I take critics as a lesson learnt or perhaps change to be a better person but wether or not I take it silently if the critic is so true about me.

Immatures will not only critcize but also make fun of people, make them feel demoralised. Well it's ok to make fun of people but there's a limit to everything. These immatures are people who complaint that "U have feelings, I don't have?" Seriously are these people humans? U want pride, people don't need any pride?

Those who read this blog may think all these are rubbish. Think again, look at yourself.

2007-02-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

Been so tired recently. Can't wake up almost every morning. shopping with my mum and qi for their clothings I bought one top on mon and another on tues.really last minute. yeah! CNY coming. not much mood but looking forward to the holidays, long holiday! Yeah Fri release early 3pm can go back already. This holiday gonna pass really fast.

2007-02-01T13:31:00.000+08:00

I went to watch the soccer match ytd. As crowded as on Saturday.this time the spectators were more 'on' than on Sat, more like a routine to them. this is the first time I watch a inter-national match where one team refuse to accept refree's decision and ask for a stop like about 10-15mins. So stupid, there's no sportsmanship at all.

I've been getting back home late everyday didn't get enough rest. Every morning so tired don't feel like going to work.I was rather late today but lucky I saw my manager haha. I always take a bus but he walks so in the end we walk to office haha at least he knows I'm late.

Coming Sat got to take my FTT but not yet study.Hope can pass if not must take and take again.

2007-01-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

The more I don't think of it the more 'It' comes to me. Maybe she's lying to herself or is she trying to ask me not to feel sad over her? This is the 2nd time already or maybe I was brooding over it too much? If I had known the answers the my own questions, I would have know why all these things happened in such a short period of time. There's no new year mood cos new year reminds me of her and makes me recall back what happened to her. In fact I don't wish to recall back but it's still fact. A fact that how much it could change me.

2007-01-29T15:44:00.000+08:00

It's a Monday again, weekend passes so fast!Last week went to watch Tiger Cups between Sin and M'sia, the ambience there was scary haha but very nice and exciting though sometimes i dun understand. Full house at the stadium and its carpark. Full of cars, bikes and people! Even getting out takes some time. This coming week gonna be busy everyday has someting on after work at 6pm. ZzZz should be quite tired by this friday.

My 1st pay went into my bank and I realise I can save alot more than I was flying that's weird. I dunno how I spend also somemore i just buy what I want to buy. When I told the stupid pig he say it was amazing haha.

Every day I'm still very lazy, drag myself to work everday and looking forward to Fridays. But I'm feeling happy at work, so far the people there are nice to me and it depends on myself how I want to do my work.

New year's coming but no new year mood for me actually.

Pissed and Angry

2007-01-15T17:02:00.000+08:00

Went back office yesterday cos of my cheque.I nv call back 1st of cos then she ask why din u give a call? I say must give a call ah I din know cos the person call my mum not me.and my mum din tell me. she say orh then I not scared nobody around when I just go back w/o calling. I just smile thinking Don't tell me there's no landing today. Everyday there's landing that's a stupid ques. another words she's just being sacarstic. Another one was in charge of my case, nv even speak a single word. I din bother to talk or say thanks or watever to her. It's just a stupid company with this kind of people where they just wanna cover their own backside but not the people working for them. Anyway was just angry I guess. Now i got my pay I need not go back face them anymore.there's noting there that I miss except my classgers who went training with me and my team members.my classgers left like 4 and team gers left 2. Sounds pathetic rite.

I saw the mailbox shifted I was shocked alot alot of people like gone or leaving.that's sad.How come things became like this? is it the management or the crews? Why isn't anyone looking into it? I even saw on news that the company gonna cut down jobs. Things are getting serious there.

I'm quite happy with my life now. Can work, learn driving, do what I wanna do, accompany my family, friends and bf. these are things I couldn't do when I was flying. Seriouly there's nothing we learn when we fly, just customer service. Sounds sad rite. But it's the dream of every ger I guess.

2007-01-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm a few weeks pass so fast. Can't remember what I did but online most of my time. Quite happy there.Relax and has my own time.

I missed a job opportunity introduced by Nic.I think it's somewhere I could really learn and advance myself.Sighz.I can't handle so man things at the same time. Quite useless ya?

2006-12-31T03:39:00.000+08:00

So far so good for the 2 weeks I've started working.Quite nice and cosy where i start to learn many things. The people are quite nice to me and willing to help me alot. As long as I finish my work everything is own time own target. Don't know if this is the job for me but so far I don't feel any unhappiness there though I got to wake up every morning for work. But I still got my weekends Public Holidays and so on.

These few weeks alot of mahjong on weekends with my mum auntie and uncles. 1 week only get to meet wenqi once or twice.but wat to do work =money which is important.

2006-12-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

I've finally turned 21 where people are turning 22. But I'm really glad to receive birthday messages from some of my frens. I had great seafood meal ,great kenny rogers and great presents from my family and frens. So nice of them wanna say a big thank you to them. I'm happier this year rather than last year where I spend my birthday all alone in Las Vegas and people I flew with of cos didn't know. So lonely.

Well a new life begins after my birthday of cos. A new job at a new place with a new job scope. Everything is new.

2006-11-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

I think everyone thinks that I brought it upon myself, laughing at me and looks down on me.So diu lian. Haiz. I'm just useless and do such things. Nvm I din wanna stay for long anyway now I get to stay in Singapore and go out with my frens whenever I can. Can do some catching up during this period of time.

2006-11-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

I ended my first job today since I graduated. Okay I don't feel sad cos I brought it upon myself but angry cos I'm useless I forgot to say certain things I wanna say at the office at least I must say my piece to office if not they won't know how we employees feel. I dun have any rights there. Even I wanna leave asked for some justice to be made, they can only nod their head. Means they cannot do anything. It's ok I just miss my classgers and my team members cos they played a large part when I'm with this company. Without them life in there is just lonely.

I shall rest for awhile before I look for another job and learn something else. I learnt a lesson from this company and seen wat type of people are there in this company. Think there's still lots to be seen. Everywhere is people wearing a mask smiling at you. Why can't everyone just be more truthful and understanding? Maybe something is wrong with me? Or them?

A new chapter of my life begins.

2006-11-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

Just came back from new york pattern yesterday. Almost died! So tired! Not enough sleep especially with Steph, Angelia and Sandy around at Narita. Angelia is leaving us haiz. It's time to really save money spend wisely when i'm overseas. But winter is coming I think i will start to hibernate in New York cos it's so so cold out in the streets that my face almost 'froze'.

I've got so many things to do this time round i come back. Lucky I've got six days in singapore. My next new destination is to Guangzhou I think it's gonna be tough cos it's only 4 hours of flight to do one meal service and keep everyting before landing.

2006-11-02T05:00:00.000+08:00

It's been really long since I updated my blog. Just came back from new york and leaving for new york again duty all legs till my legs gonna break. I have not been meeting up my friends lately. Gonna meet them soon when I come back on the 9th I guess. What have I been doing? I don't know.I only know I cut my hair short. no need tie up my hair already. Soon I gonna turn 21 but things around me start changing even when I turn 21.

2006-09-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

I realised if I work work and work I would not be reminded of what happened. When I'm in hotel doing nothing I would think alot non stop. I would think like if she could come back one day I wanna give her whatever I can as long as she's happy. I dream about what I'm thinking everyday but it's just a dream.sighz my brain is ZERO! My work doesn't need to have my brain working so till now it is still zero. Now is almost exactly 16days.

2006-08-26T03:02:00.000+08:00

I spend these 5 days with her at the funeral. I stayed up every nite to burn incense and buy her favourite food for breakfast before i take a nap and help out in the afternoon. I couldn't sleep on the last nite I want to accompany her and waste no time on sleeping. I didn't come home. Even I sleep I wanna sleep beside her or at my uncle's house where she used to live. From the day I claim her body from Hospital till her body was cremated I was with her.Memories came back to me since I was small small girl when everyone though she was my mum actually she's my grandma. She was a young and beautiful grandma to me. Even till now she's still as beautiful. She told me would live to see me get married and give her great grandchildren. Lots of regrets what I didn't do when she came my house to look for me and spend the nite at my place. When I quarrel with my mum I would call and 'complain' to my grandma and she would come here quickly. She even cried with me. I miss her spending the nite at my place I nv showed her enough concern or had heart to heart talk. She so ke lian. I never cherish her now it's too late. Reach there 3pm and so fast they just show u they light up and cremate. too fast nobody told me was so fast. till now nobody dream of her yet I don't know why. Is it really her who passed away? Can someone tell me it's not her and she'll come back?

2006-08-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

Today they went to find Ah Ma's Ling Wei went to wrong temple then everyone kept thinking where it is. Finally we found it. She bought this ling wei for herself almost 20years ago. I saw her tablet can't control myself tears dropped again.Since ytd 12pm i woke up i only slept 3 hours. I saw this hair dye she chose herself and say ' Ger ah next time I come U help me dye this colour ok I leave it here.' I was thinking she won't come back again. I can't get to sleep. I still cannot believe wat happened. Tmr will be the first day of funeral I will be there for whole 5 days awaiting for her to come back to talk to me to appear in my dream. Just so happen 49th day is Mooncake festival. I decided to give up celebrating my 21st birthday since she can't see me turning 21 yrs old. She's so young as a grandma, 61yrs old. I miss her every minute. I scared I can't take it when they cremate her. Cos I told them if possible don't cremate her but she has a ling wei already so it's her wish to be cremated I guess.

2006-08-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

Went Sim Lim today. Received a bad news. Had to dropped my flight. Nothing can bring her back. She looked after me and doted on me since I was young. She keep appearing in my mind and tears would dropped. Just the thought of it makes me cry. She's a kind hearted person just that she's stubborn. No last words from her. I wanna hear from her. I don't understand why. 19 August 2006. I will miss her alot alot alot.

2006-08-15T02:11:00.000+08:00

Something sway happen to me after I come back from new york. Angelia and I deadhead 719 together but 4 names circled from the G/D that we don't have boarding pass, on standby cos overbooking.So we went for breakfast and went to counter J at 1015. Only 2 out of 4 of us can deadhead 719 of cos they checked our schedule and those with standbys after our H(Off day) will stay behind.Left me and Carrie.Sway.Via Kuala Lumpur back also overbooking evening flight back to sin also overbooking but not as bad so they queezed us for 711.from morning till evening we stay at airport chit chat shopping and bought alot of stuff.Guess we spend our per diem away. Very tired cos the nite be4, I came back from new york I tot next day deadhead can sleep so me and angelia went eat at Narita station and took last bus back by the time reach hotel 12am and I slept ard 1230. The worse part is be4 I showed at new york i woke up in the morning at 530am then during the flight I only sleep 1 hr.I was 'floating'.

I told Carrie about my sway happenings since i started to fly. She also think I really sway cos I fly for 1 year only so many these type of irregularities happen. Think nobody wanna fly with me already.

Got called up again to take flight on the 20th.Duty all legs but nvm I like 711 better than the original schedule suppose to duty 712 then deadhead back then only 2 off day.Duty all leg got 2 more off day and more money I don't mind haha and the best part is I'm flying all legs with Vanessa, Yeah!

2006-08-06T02:11:00.000+08:00

Can someone save me( and sandy)? I think we're too addicted to travelling and holidaying! planning to go this and that countries. Watched Tokyo Drift today made me wanna take up driving lessons but no time and I hate the long walk to ssdc. Sighz. My off days fly as though it's only a day nv enjoy enough.So fast got to pack my luggage again.I'm getting used to packing and unpacking i guess. It's just troublesome. I'm leaving for New York on the 10th and only coming back on the 16th. New York again! 13hours from Narita can the pilot make it faster?

2006-07-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

Came back from Hongkong yesterday.Super tired cos we didn't get enough sleep for the 4 nights we spend at HKG.

Had lots of fun starting from the 1st day we touched down. By the time we reach hotel it was already 4pm. We took a train to Jordon Station, walked and shopped all the way from temple street to Ladies' Market. In between we had a sumptous dinner at a little shop that had 4 different types of meat and 3 dishes which cost one person about 10sgd. By the time we reach hotel was already 11pm shag and tired after shopping.

Our 2nd day to ShenZhen. Had morning breakfast at a little shop on our way to the train station from our hotel.Not many things cos we dunno where to go so we just shop at a shopping centre nearby didn't get alot of things but Winston was a really at bargaining. We did Manicure and Pedicure for only 10sgd per person. Then we went back to Tsim Sha Tsui area took a cab and went adidas outlet. Nothing there and everyone was disappointed. Then we took a cab to Esprit outlet to shop. Nothing very much also. So we decided to take a little walk and have dinner before going to Avenue of Stars. Then someone stopped us and ask if we wanted a massage. Even massage we also wanna bargain over the price. Sandy, Winston and I had a 30mins foot massage and 30mins body massage. Wenqi had a 1 hour body massage and he fell asleep. We went on to the Avenue of Stars where Stars like Jet Li, Andy Lau, Cheng Long had their had prints and signatures on the ground. The night over the sea was superb and beautiful.

Our 3rd day in the morning had dim sum at a restaurant nearby recommended by the hotel staff. Ordered alot alot of dim sum and the bill totalled up to be about 30SGD.We headed to Wong Tai Sin Temple by train. Very hot weather, we went pray, ask for lots and even had palm reading. We went on the Central Station to meet Stephaine and Micheal but they couldn't meet us on time so we decided to walk around the area while waiting for her. We happen to see a market like shopping area but the prices were higher than those at Ladies' Market and we difficult to have prices slashed. Had a break at Mac, coincidentaly saw Micheal and Stephaine and had a little lunch at Mac before we proceed to The Peak. The queue for Peak Tram was terrible cos it was so long. We saw this package with entry tickets to Madam Tussuads that cost us about 25sgd including tickets for the tram and we need not queue so all of us bought the tickets. The view was beautiful at The Peak especially at night after taking photos we went to Madam Tussuads where there wax figurines of Bruce Lee, Andy Lau, Eddie Murphy, Ayumi, Beckham, Lee Kuan Yew were made. Oh My! All of them look real especially their eyes they seem to be looking at you when u look into their eyes. We took a tram back then we wanted to have seafood so we hailed a cab and asked the cab driver. Some how we got cheated by the cab driver. The fare came up to 130HKD (about 26SGD) per cab to Lei Yue Man. The driver told us it was a place to have seafood and it's near Mongkok and it doesn't close so early. Everyone was walking out when we walked in and almost all the shops closed and we were afraid they will try to increase the price of the seafood so we decided not to have it and left the place. I took out my map and saw that we were in fact so far far away from Mongkok. We walked all the way to the train station and made a big round to the station even. Back to Mongkok had the famour Xu Liu Shan mango desserts. Then Winston saw this restaurants that has seafood steamboat and cost only 12HKG per plate of ingredients ordered.We paid only 15SGD for one person after having big plates of prawns, crabs, veggie, beef, chicken, ostrich meat and so on and we ate till 2am in the morning.

We met in the morning at 10am for Ocean Park.All of us look so tired and shag cos we slept really late the precious night after the steamboat. Had breakfast and we met stephaine about 1130am at Admiralty Station to take a bus to Ocean Park. The tickets cost less than 40SGD per person. There were many many people cos it was the holidays and was a sunday. We had to queue for the rides under the hot sun with everyone perspiring. We watched the Dolphin show at 330pm. After that we took a very scary ride, only me, Qi and Micheal took this ride.The Abyss, that brings u 20 storey high up and fall at fast speed and bring u up and down again for 1 minute. To me the scariest part is to bring me up 20 storey with my legs danggling in the air and the exciting part is to fall from such a high level. next was a Coaster ride. Not very interesting maybe becos it was too slow compared to the 1st coaster ride we had. We went to play those games and each of us won soft toys back. Luckiest was stephaine when Micheal threw the ball and it landed on the hole with big prize and she carried a big big crab back.We queued for the Cable and on the way down it was really steep. We head back to the train station on the bus and took a train back to Mongkok and had Macdonalds before going to Ladies' Market again. Actually planned to go Casino after that in the end they decided to play dice games back in hotel and loser drink. By the time we get back to hotel already 1 am. We started playing the guessing numbers of dice, loser drink and Winston drank alot at 1st but he was still ok. Sandy, the girl who drinks the least laid down on the bed 1st. Had lot os fun that night till 4 5 am in the morning then sleep.

Woke up at 12pm the next day and checked out at 1pm then we went to have dim sum we had on the 3rd day tis time we ordered some noodles and 'lobster-crab like' prawns to try it was good and this time the biil came up to be abt 60SGD. Then we seperated our ways. I took a cab to Tsim Sha Tsui cos I need to buy things from Hard Rock and Sandy went to Mongkok Esprit. Bought polo tee and tshirts for my brothers, Qi saw one tshirt he really liked but don't have his size so he didn't buy. Took a train back to Mongkok and we met at Lao Po Bing shop at ard 415pm and it started to rain like cats and dogs. Lucky we managed to get a cab with the big bags all of us had went back hotel to claim baggage and wait for bus pick us up. SAD! everybody don't wanna go back Singapore.

I enjoyed myself very much this trip with Qi, Sandy, Winston, Stephaine and Micheal even though Steph and Micheal only joined us for 2 days. I hope there will be a next time.

2006-07-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

Came back the day before JL719 landed 7.30pm. Our flight divert to Osaka Kansai Airport cos of ONE sick passenger after drinking coke. All of us were so tired cos we didn't slp well the nite before I woke up at 3am that morning then took the 840am bus.*sleepy* YawnZ* Lucky the load was v light with only 1 deadhead crew. Ambulance already waited at the parking spot. Alot of Medical Personnels came up and people with cameras took picture not sure if they are reporters. so exggerating! Kua Zhang!

Went for Kiat's wedding dinner. Told Qi to meet me at 630pm but I fell asleep and woke up at 7pm! Oh No I'm Dead! but by 810pm I was there already. Too tired le. All of us were very happy for Kiat.But all of them either didn't sleep throughout the night or only sleep 1 or 2 hours. All of them look like walking zombie.

Now it's time to start preparing for HK trip don't know what to prepare and some lazy bum ask me to help him to prepare.

2006-07-07T03:00:00.000+08:00

I got called up to take a new york flight leaving Sin on the 8th again and will only be back in time on the 14th for the wedding dinner. Sighz don't know what to wear for that night haha.I duty back again sianz I nv had a deadhead back since March. This mth no need eat grass tt's a good thing.

After I come back from this trip I got to get ready for my HK trip on the 20th. Oh ya I will get to see Stephaine n Micheal in HK and they booked the same hotel as us so excited.Yuppy so happy.

And as I stare at the 2 wine at my house I'm really angry it doesn't pay to be nice and never will I be nice again especially to certain people.

2006-06-28T03:35:00.000+08:00

Took my Grade B test on Monday on my way home, office called me to take flight on wed which means I'm leaving in the morning to San Francisco.Sianz.My LA flight gone.I think after I come back chances of having any flight will be very low which means I'll have no flight till 28 July. Never mind can relax. will be leaving for Hongkong on the 20th back in the 24th night I'm looking forward to it.

2006-06-23T03:17:00.000+08:00

Went Liberty at New York with Vanessa.Our trip there was like more than half a day did a super fast shopping at 34th street.Came back Narita and went to Chiba with Sandy and I bought a Blue Label Burberry's Tote Bag so happy.Abit bit heart pain but I aim very long already.

Finally I'm back.Till next mth I will be in singapore.Think I need to go back and take my Grade B test if not can't go brushup course with them le.All take le except me.I'm dead. But I passed my Emergency test.

Next 2 months will be very poor. No money...Sianz..

2006-06-11T03:54:00.000+08:00

Woke up around 2pm today suppose to arrange our movie thingy.In the end only me shireen and zhixian wanna watch and very rush so we didn't watch. We went shop shop buy food and we went look for chuan han and peter. Then went zhixian's house to play mahjong and ordered Mac.I borrowed 3 sets of korean drama and shireen borrowed 2 sets from his mum. His mum is a No.1 korean drama fan whole cupboard full of korean dramas. June came and he sent all of us back with the $1.60 he won.His bday that day I won't be in Sin, can't celebrate with him but will get a present for him ba.

Tmr leaving for Kix.Got to take test before i take flight.Hope I can pass.80% is the passing mark leh so high.haiz...........

2006-06-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

Went Malaysia the day before and the sun is so hot we queued abt 1 hour I think dunno y so many people.Quite fun bought many things but was really tired for the day.Went see doc before that for my eye. still not ok till today. can't take flight tmr evening. Will do a 3-days pattern on the 11th. Qi say this month I eat grass but never mind cos at least still got new york flight. don't know when my eye will recover. Need to see doc tmr early morning again.

All my veins appeared

2006-05-31T17:45:00.000+08:00

I think I've not done new york flight for too long already. Flight time 12hours 13 hours, except for rest time for 2h 30mins for both ways, I never sat down. Especially my way back to narita I was in Business Class doing the new service don't even have a chance to sit down. The people I work with all very senior japanese crews but I don't care not happy ma. But I helped a chinese old lady who couldn't speak any language except for chinese so only me and Vanessa communicated with her. I think she was very nervous for the flight but after the flight she told us she not scared and felt very glad cos got us around to help her. I feel very happy also leh.

Shopping at New York! Tax-free! I bought alot of clothes again!

Reach narita my red veins appeared on my legs think I stand too long le. Too tired went to sleep then candy came then she called my hp cos she knocked on my door but I couldn't wake up. Then the worse thing is I woke up at 11pm cannot slp next morning 9am then slp.Sandy came in also knocked on my door I didn't wake up she called my hp haha.they so poor thing bunk in with me but I slp like pig.

Finally my turn to go back to Singapore.Board the plane then got problem must change ship wait for one hour for another ship to block in. By the time i reach sin already 2am. Shag!

2006-05-23T04:12:00.000+08:00

Woke up like 5pm yesterday don't know why I can sleep till so late.Went Bugis and spend about $80. Then accompany my little brother at arcade. Came home around 10pm then we went supper at punggol nasi lemak around 1am.

Today I woke up around 2pm.Checked the price for 5D4N for Hong Kong trip.A bit expensive about $801 but I don't mind cos the hotel is well located and a 4.5star hotel.My mum, Bro and I went to Bishan for lunch. While having lunch she kept complaining about the attitude of the girl at the food court and didn't gave her the change.Haha my bro and I hear till sianz already. We saw hermit crab one for $25.I'm thinking of getting one for my little brother after I come back from the next trip.

Qi came to fetch me.He waited for me till he hungry so we went over to Kang's place to eat before we go visit Fei.Saw his mum and Jasmine there too.

After that we decided to go back to Yishun to watch but got to wait for so long and we're drenched cos it was raining. So we went back home book online at Sunplaza for DaVinci Code at 9pm. I didn't understand the show at 1st cos it was a bit complicated, fast and the words they used in the show were hard to understand. There were lots of puzzles, codes and mystery behind everything. Eventually I understood the after-part of the story. If I had read the book I guess I would understood it better.

We went home to rest a while before we went for supper.So unlucky! The moment we left the carpark it started pouring so we had to stop at nearby coffeeshop and of course we had supper there and stranded for about half an hour. It was so cold during the journey back.

2006-05-21T05:05:00.000+08:00

Went Kang's chalet for the past 2 nights and went home at 5am in the morning. Played Mahjong, BBQ.Overall still won a little bit at mahjong. We had fun. We had cake for him for his birthday.I guess and hope he was happy. They planned to catch crab at Sembawang Park not sure if they can wake up but I think I can't.

Sleeping Disorder

2006-05-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

I've got sleeping disorder.I think it's jetlag.I can't sleep at night and if I wake up early I can't get to sleep anymore.I toss and turn on my bed from 3am till don't know wat time then fell aslp woke up at like 10plus in the morning. Till now I don't know what to do, so bored! I feel so tired can someone save me?

Next trip will see Candy at narita and New york so happy.But I don't want to fly.Sad..

Hope tonight nobody will get drunk if they are,I will leave first.

Looking forward to my Offs in Sin

2006-05-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

Came back ytd at 1am.So tired.Enjoyed this flight with Emily and of cos Sandy during my stay at Nrt and Lax.I learnt quite a lot during my flight cos I was the Assist Gly.If they assigned me in Biz Class I might just die and they might have the service screwed up.But the load was very light to LA passengers plus crews less than 100.Haha.

Alot of things to do in Sin.Got ah gang's chalet on fri.Then celebrate my Bro's birthday on Tues.Next flight to New York been months since I went there.If I aren't flying with Vanessa and Sherine I think I would've drop my flight.Cos I don't like to go to New York!I like LA better.Since I checked out till now I only went to SFO twice, New york 4times, Vegas twice, Saigon twice.The rest of my flights are to LA.Nvm I like alot.Got money and short flight hours compared to other US routes.

Fun,Sad and Angry

2006-05-11T15:11:00.000+08:00

Finally ate my pasta ytd nite before watching Mission Impossible 3.So qiao saw Sandy at Causeway Point.Nice show very exciting and Tom Cruise is so handsome. Went Jinyong's house to play mahjong, after 2 rounds of struggling finally no win no lose. Next time wanan play must play evening de if not all like wanna slp.

Came back home ard 530am so tired.then quarrelled with him again.Me and him together for so long yet he also angry.Ok lo Don't go movie but I will still go out that day whether he working or not. But he cannot.Nvm Don't go anywhere stay at home best already.My life so bored.In sin I have my family, when he's not working then go out with him and when i'm abroad I have my classgirls and closer crews. I don't care anymore let him be cos I'm already leaving for flight tmr early morning.

TiReD TiReD TIRED!

2006-05-09T01:58:00.000+08:00

From Narita to Los Angeles,from LA back to Narita and from Narita back from Sin all legs either rest time too short or no rest time at all the most unlucky is I want to rest but the crew bunk door I don't know how to open and paiseh to ask so I sat on the jump seat tryin to sleep. For more than 9hours I nv sat down till I board the bus at Los Angeles,my poor feet. The Japanese so bad felt like giving her a box haha.Coming back worse got 1 crew don't know she lazy or what a pax asked for straws she can just take and give her since she's already there.No lo she went looking for me in aircraft and tell my senior what very busy.Act busy only la don't know what the hell she doing and don't let me eat when a more senior jap crew say I can eat.

I woke up at 3am at Narita the day I came back by the time I reach home I just lie down and slp within a minute.I slept till 8am this morning and kiam kiam came to fetch me as usual.Nothing special but he made me cry cos we were playing he carried me and THROW me down on the bed and my back hurts!Couldn't even stand it so my tears rolled down, so painful ok! Today started to plan what me and Bean Paste should do for the next flight so I called her.Went for dinner at Causeway, Soup Restaurant and Dessert at Swensens, very full.

My Saturday!

2006-04-30T05:29:00.000+08:00

Went to forum to check out birkenstock then went wisma and taka.Actually wanna eat pasta at Cine but somebody's leg like gonna break anytime so we walked back and went on to newton circus but we din eat there.In the end we went to kang's place for dinner then guowei came join us.

I feel xin suan and almost cried when I heard of His problems and talked to him.I wanna help him. I personally feel he don't deserve all these hardships cos he's a nice person and at least he knows how to think. I realise how fortunate many people are and I understand how he feels.I hope he will come to me or Fat Pig when he needs help cos I really wanna help him as a fren.

I HATE this FEELING

2006-04-29T03:21:00.000+08:00

I hate the feeling of being ignored when I didn't say anything.I didn't stop you from going even though I din want you to go.I even planned for myself wat to do during this weekend.Cos i seldom have weekends in singapore.Nvm U can go and fulfil ur dreams I dun mind then now it's as though I somehow stopped you from going.I didn't really didn't and had no intention to. Now i just feel so sad even though it's my weekend off. Go go and do wat you wanna do, don;t ask me anything if it's ur wish ur dream or watever u always wanna fulfil.

Crying to slp....

Weekend is coming

2006-04-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

Back from LA quite a relaxing flight pattern but I deadhead from Lax to NRT I sit till my backside pain cos cannot walk abt. Next mths schedule out again.Labour Day burnt, Vesak Day burnt since june in Japan Airlines they make me fly EVERY PUBLIC HOLIDAY.Why?Maybe they dun like me.

I will see Bean Paste at NRT many times and can bunk in many times also die liao think we can talk till we slp late each time we bunk in.Happy Happy.We saw steph at Thompson this afternoon coincidentally. She got 2 day MC so good..

Weekend is coming but wenqi is away from sin,sad.Don't know who will accompany me....

Hurray!

2006-04-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

I enojoyed this flight alot cos got sherine and vanessa and I always enjoy my flights with them.Next trip doing irregular LA pattern whao my favourite leh cos i can slp from LAX to NRT no need work leh haha. I hate the japanese crew from narita to frisco cos she 'diao' me and keep speakin to me in japanese.6 mths check not 6 years check she thought i went thru Japanese University?My face black lo.But back to Narita the crew was very nice she still praised me so happy.On the way back to Singapore I almost screwed up the whole service but nvm la come back le.

Went back office for briefing.then i realised i got so many test to take.Even when i study poly test dun come so often.Maybe i'm taking Honours?Will receive the square hat?Haiz I don't like to study la.

Super shag.I haven slp since ytd 3am.I cannot slp at all gonna be goldfish soon.

Sian Sian Sian

2006-04-10T03:35:00.000+08:00

Days passed just like that.One week gone le.For the past 1 week I've been watching Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa and now I'm watching Zhong Ji Yi Ban.I watch till Gan chiong end of part 7 i wanna watch part 8 then the youtube site undergoing dunno wat changes cannot watch.Haiz.
Leaving again on Tues morning to san francisco.Got flight check.Stress and scared.Today i'm a ox and horse.First stupid Qi created 'fountain' in carpark then I had to wrap presents.after that remove paint and wash bike.So tiring leh.I felt so bad cos i dripped some paint removal on the bike rim then got some black parts gone!Last day in singapore le lo.But in enjoyed these few days.If every mth I've a long holiday how nice(I wished)!Then I missed erica's chalet but prepared a present for her hope she'll like it. I will be back ok...back on 17th late evening..

Shag with Pimples!

2006-04-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

So tired after duty 6 legs in 7 days pattern. this is worse than duty 4 legs going to US but i rather go US cos got more money. Lucky I flew with a nice senior. Then alot of pimples pop out i think it's because my face is sensitive and the blankets at hotel some not clean. This time round I didn't go out at narita before going on to saigon and oni did mani and pedi at saigon hotel. I'm becoming more and more lazy. I just wanna slack. I wanna slack my way thru till end of the year. Sway man I'm going to have flight check on the 12th Apr for the NRTSFO leg must study leh..shit...I don't like to study. I came back with alot alot of titbits for him to bring to chalet.So sad i cannot join them at chalet.Nvm go and earn money lo.Haiz. Next 2 flight should be enjoyable cos flying with Vanessa and sherine but dunno why Emily not with us. This time i come back I got many days in Sin, till 11th then fly.

After Chalet

2006-03-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

After my morning mahjong session with angelia, sandy and steph I went for my Basic theory Test didn't really study but lucky I pass le so happy. Don't know when I'm going for the practical lessons. I went home slp and woke up at 7 pm when fat pig called me to wake me up. Went there, had some food and then..they started drinking..scary..they finished one vodka in 1.5hrs. Out of 6, 4 were drunk. Drunk then lie down and sleep nvm ma still wake up and vomit then all of us got to take plastic bags and take care of them. Lucky next day they didn't drink only after i go home then they drink.I heard a few drunkards too.

Woke up real late like 3pm this afternoon. Packed my things for tmr's flight then went Natas. Went to find Steph then we started to look for cheap packages.DON'T have lo.So expensive.Got cheap ones but ask me to take China Airlines dun want, I scared. After Natas we went Carrefour bought so many many things then went to have supper at maxwell. Tmr morning got to wake up early to meet him le.tmr got to fly leh..2nd I'm coming back!

Work so hard

2006-03-24T02:51:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the Los Angeles pattern. First time i see so many class girls together at narita even in LA too.So happy so fun so glad. Me Steph and lily even went to Harajuku together, din buy alot of things but we bought alot of things from aeon. I went back with my coat bag even cos i bought too many things le.

Even though just 3 sectors but all sectors were scary. It's my 1st time doing the SR service in cabin do till my leg also wanna break liao.Back to Narita I did D/E compt Gly but i was slow maybe becos i din work for 2 weeks le then need to practise again.Back to sin 1st time i did the type S Gly and 1st time on this configuration of B777. Then next flight even worse I'm going to duty at least 1 leg everyday for 7 days pattern. Duty 6 legs altogether! Wah liao the money becomes harder to earn. Nvm tolerate tolerate tolerate.

I came back and went chomp chomp with sandy her bf, angelia, lily,steph and her bf.then we planned to play mahjong...die le dunno can wake up ma...

It's a Saturday Nite

2006-03-12T04:01:00.000+08:00

Woke up quite late met chee yew, siew they all at orchard hard rock there ard 245pm then we watch Date Movie at Lido.Quite funny but a bit stupid . Met shireen at far east ard 7plus then met up with fatty qi and ekin.oh my god ekin lost his way.We bought tickets from PS watching shaggy dog at 1125pm then went ah gang there to have our meal.japanese food.Ah gang got future in being a cook, it taste good. And went back to PS meet up with botak, Alex ang his gf fot the show.NOt bad that show quite interesting and funny. After that we send shireen back then went Jalan Kayu for prata.I was tired and the stupid fatty qi take me like transparent like that, since i met him at 730 till just now 330 at least 12.really angry now I will show face not like last time will give him face.No I really won't so he will know that I meant what I say and he can;t coax me with just "ok la ok la next time won't le" how many times i told him never listen la.angry angry angry.

Ice Cold Beer

2006-03-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

Everyone look so tired for class since 9 till 4pm. After class everyone was so jing shen cos we're going for dinner together. we went to far east had a little rest took bus to heeren and walk to Ice Cold Beer(Near Centrepoint). Quite fun chat alot and they like to tease me leh esp someone name micheal lee so i teased him back haha cos when he smile i can't see his eyes so when i smile at him i close my eyes haha.then all of us 'dropped dead' so tired then me sandy n sonia shared a cab the stupid cab driver say 'only 1 destination' then we got off again take another cab so angry.

1 week Flies

2006-03-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

I can't really remember wat I did for the past 1 week, just flew by like that but I know gonna go for course soon on 9th 10th 13th 14th 15th, almsot everyday,so tiring leh. Right after that on the 16th got to fly again sianz!I just went back office today so boring with full uniform lucky sandy drove me back if not I think i would've slp in the bus cos i;m so tired.Then they say must take this test take that test after 6 months still wat brush up course then go for emergency review i think in aug or sep so many things to learn unitl I wanna drop dead le.Sound like some big business woman taking wat course wat test for promotion.I come back on the 22nd night and 2 night stay in Japan I think me steph and lily going to town,so happy.I wanna look for job in maybe july or aug.haiz thinking will I be leaving for a better or worse company?

That's Vietnam

2006-03-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

I just came back from my 1st Saigon pattern. When I 1st landed in Saigon I was amazed cos it looks like our old airport. The so called arrival hall is in a carpark! The number of motorbikes are so much more than vansand cars and people need not even put on helmet on a bike just any tom dick and harry can ride on it and the most amazing thing I was shocked was that 1 family of 4 person can share one bike! The road side stalls seemed so unhygienic and the water is not clean. Vietnam belongs to a poor country.

This month me gonna pluck roadside grass and eat cos I only have 1 flight this whole month.Nvm relax just that earn lesser money. Haiz still must wear uniform go back office on the 8th then 9-15th there's japanese lesson at delphi orchard from 9-5pm but get weekends off.Right after that i deadhead to NRT on the 16th with Steph Sandy and Lily.

STorm

2006-02-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

I just came back from JFK.So tired cos duty all legs.Before i left for New York there was snow storm.well,AGAIN! Bad luck cos this yr I've experince 2 snow storm.1 in Japan 1 in New York.Lucky to New york and Back to Japan every flight was on time except for the stupid bus driver who drove us to the wrong hotel felt like giving him a PuNcH. He made us wait at the wrong hotel for 2 hours after the 13 hours long flight from Narita.

So cold when i was in New York, -3 deg, snow shove to the road side was abt 1 metre high. Me and Angelia went out the next day shopping the road was so dirty and we stepped on a puddle of water oh shit but it was fun with my Valentine, Angelia.Hahaha.

Next trip to Saigon (Vietnam) very scared i eat wrong things.So I brought a lot of instant noodles and water. Long trip again 7 days, 28th will be back.

Depressed Me

2006-02-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

I just came back yesterday from KL after spending abt 200sgd in KL shopping. Meet him today but he had been sleeping whole day so bored Somemore he can't meet me tmr and I can't meet him on Sat. Haiz just so sad plus can't celebrate his Bday and Valentines' Day. I guess I'll only have Angelia with me on Valentines' Day. Finally the stupid probation gonna end I gonna clear most of my Leave after March. Plus still got bunkhar during the beginning of march. I can't even handle the work on flight well still must go for Japanese lesson I'm going crazy already the money hard to earn lo.

I heard of many things during my last 2 flights and after that I always cannot sleep in the hotel room thinking of the dangers I face when I fly. Anything happen to me who is going to be responsible.NOBODY! Even the company they cannot do anything! I don't feel secure at all. How? What should I do?

In Life it's all about LYING. Just a matter of YOU LIE to others OR OTHERS LIE to you. As for me I wouldn't deny that I never lied to anyone but I just realised that people always lie to me cos I believe them easily and I'm easily convinced.I used to just believe blindly now I would think carefully and would think otherwise about the situtation. There's no trustable friends even if they are 10 years of friends.

Sighz.Leaving on Saturday night again and will only be back on the 18th so long leh the flight pattern.Duty all legs will be tired like shit.

Last Updated

2006-02-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

I had 2 nice flights last mth.I spent quite a bit but so happy with both trips and the people who were with me.But I always feel so tired.I ate alot of good food I think now become fat fat haha.But I missed chinese new year, missed my family and him when I was away.I feel lonely at times and really missed times spent in Singapore.After March I'll try to take leave to rest more.Now my life so boring all the countries will be completed next mth meaning after next month I will be flying back the same countries again and again.

WhAo I'vE ForGottEn AbOuT ThiS

2005-10-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

It's been like 3 months since I updated my blog. been busy with training and followed by On job training. So tough, almost dead. Many things happened in these 3 months especially the 6 weeks i spent in Tokyo, tough but enjoyable.The life of a cabin attendant is so poor thing I've only like truly 8 days off in Singapore if I'm lucky I get to stay in Singapore longer with Standbys(which means can call me within a certain timing, anytime and fly within the next 2 hours). Most of my days are away from home and I miss my home, family and friends.

Most girls are like me, they think that being a cabin attendant is so good so nice, get to fly around. No! To me it isn't as easy as everyone thought. Sighz.

So many things happen around me, my friends.I often get to hear of news only after I come back. In fact they can contact me anytime just that I'm overseas.I can't be with my friends when they need to talk to me like it used to be. I can't be with my family when they need my help and can't meet my dear when he wants to meet me.

No More Time LeFt

2005-07-09T02:35:00.000+08:00

another one more week, i'm leaving.leaving for a long time.i'm so so sad.everytime i think of it i just felt like crying out.sighz.saw my bestie fren today at bishan but i din get to see nic.everyone thinks that it's so good to be able to go to japan for 6 weeks but i dun think likewise.i'll super miss my home, my lappy, my bed, my mum, my little bro and my dear.if only they allow us to go back like once a 2 3 weeks.haiz not possible.i scared of stress over there.i dunno if i can survive or i can take it or not.i scared i'll cry when i think of the things and ppl in singapore.

Finally An Off Day

2005-06-29T17:58:00.000+08:00

Finally after weekend burnt my off day, so tired. almost drop dead. Test on friday again! scary and stressful! Then i asked myself why wanna be a cabin crew when the job is like so tough. I mean it's like everyone's dream to be a cabin crew. Sounds a bit stupid rite. I was dying to get in when i applied for this job.I succeeded and asking myself why i applied for this job simply cos it's a dream. Well, nvm hope i can pass all my tests uncluding those in Japan quickly finish OJT and my probation. Then will be more relaxed. Another 2 more weeks going to Japan. Will missed my family my dear my laptop my tv and my bed! Sighz hope it's not too stressful.

So many things happened today

2005-06-24T02:39:00.000+08:00

I've finished my JOL1 test and phew much relax. went for lunch with our Japanese teacher and we bought a cake.Watched Initial D with wei, hui, gang, qinghua and qi.They all so shuai. reminds me of me waiting for them with my burger at the airport during my lunch time. So excited! And then it's party time!Went Thumper with my classmates in the night like a little gathering. Quite fun and as usual had little gossips.

I seriously think that everyone has the right to speak up for themselves. Well when 3 party is concern there MUST be someone with the biggest fault and i don't believe in one party saying how evil the other one is. After so much had happened the true victim is now being accused? What rubbish is that? the person with the biggest fault should do something about clearing up the misunderstandings everywhere and stop whatever nonsense that are untrue. And never express words like gangster when it's just a girl maybe scolding on the phone cos there is every single reason why she scolds the other party. So ya each and every one should do some soul searching of what had been done.

Two-timing would just hurt everyone and i mean every single party. Why get invloved in a relationship where there is always a worry cos there are 3 parties invloved. I truly understand this kind of relationship and once would be enough for me it really would hurt every single party. Find someone who you truly love and who truly loves you but not just getting a 'companion'. I feel sad for those who are not known that they themselves are in a 3-party-relationship, it's unfair and would definitely feel cheated for what they are giving to their loved ones. Well I'm not in any position to say anyting but I know how it feels cos I've been not known to this type of relationship and I had also kept such relationships not known to the other party. I was seriously upset and remorseful of what had happened. Well maybe other ppl would not.

Work Work Work

2005-06-08T22:26:00.000+08:00

Started work 3 days ago.So tired everyday. got to wake up at like 630am every morning tie hair makeup before i head to airport.Sometimes i even makeup on bus.so tired of it.luckily the ppl ard me are quite funny and we chat at times we're the most noisy in class i guess haha.

think my training gonna be quite tough. Especially with the Japanese Language. Alot of rules in Japan when training but got money take also wor...not bad lo....now they start to train us to be so polite that we got to say Ohaya Gozaimasu (Good Morning), Dozo Yoroshiku Onegaiitashimas (qing duo duo zhi jiao), Osakini Shitsurei Itashimasu (Excuse me,I'll go ahead first). Someting new to me quite fun but getting a little stress but the in-charge cos they keep telling us to work hard or we will not get to go japan for training. I scared!

How Heartless A Guy Could Be

2005-05-23T02:20:00.000+08:00

I tot the previous one she knew was heartless this is even worse. Something got to be DONE! she went missing for so long and nv bother to look for her while everybody was so worried. Now she's back he nv even have a SINGLE word of concern. well, at least ask her where she went or even apologize. He dun even wanna sort things out and return her back her hp. What's all these about? He could be the worst guy i've ever come across.

Oh NO! Wrong! I've come across a even worse guy than him and it happened on me like 4 yrs ago! I'll nv forgive him I still see him now and then but so what. Just my luck to bump into him at bishan and even orchard! He gives me a look that he knows me but I give him a look as in 'see what see'. Left without a word and din even bother to explain what's even worse his fren got to help him to explain after like half a year later. ArgHhhh I'm so god damn angry with this type of guys.

I guess out of 8 guys only 3 are really nice and loving guys, as in SINCERE and truly knows what a relationship is. These are the guys that truly put their heart into relationships.Well, one day these ppl will know what they've missed in their life and when they want to look back everything would be too late. If 2 person can't get along well just say it out why LIE and even turn around and not even say a single word.

I used to take it to heart. I was heart broken, upset and didn't even have appetite to eat when i kept asking myself why are the guys that I met are not able to put their heart into our relationship. One after another then I learnt abput something in life. It's hard to find someone that truly loves you and you truly love him. In fact I found one when i was young. But I was young then, I wanted to have a different relationships to find my Mr Right and so I left him. Since then i regretted and asked why am I so bad and perhaps it was retribution that after which the guys i met with were mostly jerks. ya. I'll nv be sad over jerks again. Why cry over them? It's just a waste of my tears.

I just hope my fren would open up her choice in future. Choose wisely. Sadness bound to be there and one day she'll find someone who truly loves her like the way she loves him. Well, DON'T be sad over JERKs again ok?

11 Months

2005-05-22T03:44:00.000+08:00

So fast gonna start. feeling a little worried already.
now i'm spending lesser time with wenqi but i guess it's also time for him to adapt. seems like it's not working he always hai hai hai and say wat he's jealous of his brother.ya ya ya compare and compare..i believe every couple with different personalities is different in their own way of dating. the fact that if a couple can spend every minute together when they start to work, the time spent would also be much lesser. Or maybe he'll feel MORE FORTUNATE with another person then need not get jealous of another person? What a sentence he said to me 'I'm jealous of my brother.' What is he trying to say?

U can't possibly expect me to spend every free time i have with you. And I seriously think that he is mentioning too much of 'HIM' I'm getting a bit irritated at times.U mean other than my free time with you i can't spend my own time doing other things, accompanying my frens? And i just wan to have another hour with my frens whom i meet up 3 4 yrs once. He start to hai hai hai. I'll just simply feel that 'Can't I have this little time of my own?' I kept thinking wat was his life like w/o me in the past. he could be spending his time with his own frens. so why complain that he's so bored staying at home the whole afternoon and so on and so on.

Down On my Day

2005-05-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

Today suppose to go shopping with Shireen happily in the end quarrelled with my mum before i went out spoil my whole day Haiz. Everyting also wanna control go where also wanna ask. Next time work everyting also must tell her is it? 20 this year already she treat me like 10 years old! So angry lo.

My poor little bro sick for 2 days already. Hope he quickly get well otherwise i think my mum gonna send him to hospital tmr. So poor ting. Sighz.

HaPPy? WoRRieD?

2005-05-07T02:35:00.000+08:00

Just signed the contract today will start work on the 6th June. From that very day onwards everyday will be jacket suits, stockings, high-heeled shoes with hair bundled up and of cos makeup. Training begins with the Japanese Language. Scared I can't catch up and not able to learn. Well and my salary for the first few mths so little but nvm after that can work and earn more and it's the job i wanted to have. Guess i'll be leaving Singapore for 5 weeks for the training in Japan. Sighz miss my mum, my little bro, my dear and my frens.

So Touching So Tiring

2005-05-01T03:25:00.000+08:00

Finally I've finished the Lavender Drama. Wah so touching, I cried and cried think can use a container to collect my tears haha. Sighz Y the ger must die? she got 2 guys that love her so much esp the one sacrificing everything for her.

As for the comment that Gab made, sometimes dunno where Gab go leh.I think mostly is me hanying and shireen talking rubbish haha.

Today was suppose to go ice skating but then who knows the whole complex is closed! then we went up in orchard meeting carol and botak. planned to go heeren but we spend the whole day in Taka (don't know what we were doing either) walk walk and shop shop. Legs walk till so 'sour'.

Troublesome But Worth It

2005-04-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

So tired after running around to do a medical checkup. Lucky never draw my blood, I'm scared! Haha. But nvm, worth it as long as can fulfil my dream. Wonder will I pass the medical checkup if I fail, everyting will come to an end. Sighz. I miss my frens, miss school and the discussions we used to have between me shireen hanying christopher and sometimes gab. Oh no I really miss those days. Sighz. Now every one is working, I'm still at home slacking.

Happy and Scared

2005-04-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

Though got through my second interview, I'll be going for my last interview this sunday. I'm so afraid so afraid that I'll not be selected and got kicked out after I've gone thru the interviews. I'm worried that I cannot pass their test.Sighz. This whole weekend is all about interviews. Got to wake up real early but nvm if can fulfil my dream why not sacrifice keke.

Sighz.Stress Over Job.

2005-04-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

So afraid i can't get a job. of course i hope to receive good news i think i won't go so far, i wouldn't be able to make it through everything. thinking of it makes me sad. i got to start looking for another job soon.

Sitting Home Sleeping, Eating, Online, Watch Tv

2005-04-12T02:09:00.000+08:00

More than a week passed after my last paper. Getting a bit bored staying at home in the daytime and going work to work in the night.Sighz.Want to quickly get a job soon.

Shuxian working most of the days, we can;t go shopping. wenqi working in the daytime, can;t go anywhere either.Boring.

Went for my JAL interview but i doubt wold be able to make it with those prepared or 2nd-attempt applicants in my group.Sighz.I stare into the air for the whole of the day thinking abt my poor performance. I should've said what i intended to say but i missed out alot cos i was too nervous.

I still got another hope.Received a little good news today thru my mail. SIA send me an interview email.keke. so happy. Hope i can perform better than what i said for JAL interview.

Now what worries me is.on the 24th April, both final interviews will be held.If i manage to pass the 2nd one for JAL and the first interview for SIA what should i do in order to confirm my job? well, i guess i worried too much just wait till i pass JAL interview then say since i guess i won't be receiving the letter this thurs.

A HaRd WeeK NeXt WeeK

2005-03-27T03:31:00.000+08:00

A Saturday yet didn't go anywhere stay at qi's place one whole day.I want to go orchard but he say lazy. amazingly he actually want to go orchard in the middle of the night just to accompany his fren to pick a drunk a ger?ya.Go lo.What can I say?Blame myself?My fault? Upset to hear that he can just simply reject where i want to go by saying he is lazy. Then what am i?Nothing lo.Haiz nvm forget it.

There comes my sunday again.meaning got to study for next week's paper.3 papers altogether hope will pass faster but don't know enough time to finsh studying or not. After this week i'll be free.Free everyday.Can go anywhere i want can do what i want to do.I'm freed.

Stupid carpark

2005-03-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

Still so angry with the fall.such a big leakage yet nobody in the management did anything.I wanna complain lo..

The foodfare has got so much to eat like shi zhi lu kou. eat while we walk haha. Cannot play liao next 2 weeks must study study le.SighZ.

I HaTe tHe DaY

2005-03-20T02:39:00.000+08:00

The day when everything just goes so wrong with the printer not working, someone's bike not working, engine no batt no petrola and only tears...ya...tears....

everything was fine though he was a little unhappy that i met him quite late becos of the printer which was really important to me at that point of time. and then before we left for Civil Club at PS, the car stopped so the bike stopped as well.the sound came when it was nothing good and walked all the way down the carpark and wait for his dad to come. Out of goodwill, my stupid brain and mouth told him to pump petrol. but on the way, "I know how much my bike can travel i dun need you to tell me and how will u feel if you're the one riding and the person behind you keeps commenting" so i kept quiet all the way with no comments or replies. i just wanted him to ride safely with or without me nothing much.with an extra pair of eyes alerting him tot would be better.Ya better...better than my ass i think.

there comes the petrol the station with ques of 'So how much i should pump i let u decide' oh well...since u're there u wanna pump how mcuh u pump la dun wanna pump also can just carry on ya. and then the bike couldn't start...scared, guilty and sad and the same time wanna cry liao.tot dun wanna let him trouble again to send me back so wanted to pass the present to justin which we bought for Ragu and take a bus home.But quarrels, shouting with eyes on us just happened with our blood boiling.I just hate the way he grabbed my hand and shout,hate the way he threatened me "I dare you to walk one more step" actually wat's there to be afraid of even if i walked another step.So his dad was our mediator ya.but can;t forget all these happened..still so sad..

Haiz...

2005-03-16T02:28:00.000+08:00

Stress on projects, exams and presentation. Next week will be the First paper but i not yet even start to study.Will i fail? Think projects ending soon, just afraid of my presentation which is on friday. after this weekend i got to start study le.

I think she has something to tell me.although i dun really know wat is it, i can sense it's something not really happy?haiz i felt so bad..cos she tried to ask me out but i couldn;t make it.Sighz.

FiNaLLy my WeekEnd

2005-03-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

A BuSy Week with presentations and test. Over and there comes my projects. a few of them gonna due like next week hopefully can finish them in time.after projects will come the big thing..EXAM!Must study study study le.

These few weeks me and him were like hmm..having little probs here and there and he will say "U always have your reasons for doing things, whatever U say is right whatever i say is wrong" since we were together he always say that now it's even worse every week he will say it like 2 3 times.SiGhz.i dun wanna see him giving me any type of face cos i only see him during weekends and can't see his happy face like i use to see.really not happy being with me?hopefully not ya? maybe 2 person together for sometime le will become like tis especially with both our stubborn characters.

S t r E s S ! ! ! !

2005-03-01T10:47:00.000+08:00

Wk 13 already alot of project gonna due le..And i'm still slacking even though i know what to do.
Ytd night i was tossing and turning about in my bed till 2plus and till 3 thinking about my projects and exams.think i stress myself too much till i lost my slp.I gonna have a hard week ahead, got work projects, IS test, IBS presentation.Hopefully by sat i can finish my Integrated and a bit of ET otherwise will wan dan le.I've got a feeling everyone thinks that i'm slacking sighz muz work hard le.

Shuxian birthday coming le how to celebrate for her ah..sighz..everyone so busy so stress but also muz celebrate ma.it's like once in a year. I've got many movie shows to watch man..think some muz leave till after exams then watch le.i think exams is coming towards me real fast another 2-3 weeks?got enough time to study?Haiz I must JIA YOU le.think everyone also muz JIA YOU for exam.

My BuRnT aRmS

2005-02-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning and went back to sleep..I didn't go to sch again! for 4 days I nv go sch but next 3 days must go sch le.

So I went for my bike circuit revision at 240 till 420pm.
After that I went to Qi's house wait for him then i realised the lower part of arms are BuRnT. and i really mean burnt as in reddish skin colour.Haiz my poor hands.Last time i used to be a zebra cos of bike again n couldn't put on sleeveless not even i put on a tshirt the burnt part is still so obvious.Lucky my road revision tmr is in the evening.I've got a bad feeling about my traffic police.Haiz.

I wanna go seletar with shuxian and qi again.Hope this weekend can go again but muz have group of people that we know then fun.keke.this week already week 12 le left 2 more weeks no more sch BUT exam is coming..SiGhZ!

My VaLeNtiNe's DaY

2005-02-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night was a short night with him but i was very happy also. Our first Valentine's Day together but it cost both of us a bomb.Haha.But most importantly both of us enjoyed ourselves.

She was telling me how funny she felt having dinner with him. I was glad and at the same time puzzled she was willing to have dinner with him alone? he sounds not bad...Very nice and caring..Keke...Too bad i didn't come across such a person...otherwise....hmm I wouldn't be writing about my valentine's day hahaha..

HiS BiRtHDaY...

2005-02-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

these 3 days of chalet, whole night of mahjong may sound tired but i've catch enough sleep tt's why i'm not tired.i played mahjong till 8am the next morning, my record! But it was fun, all the way there was laughter till the morning and i couldn't slp! maybe laughed too much.

The bbq on Sat was a busy one.people ask me where's this where's that got this got that can eat this can eat that.i look like a maria tt day.haha..ah xiong say i'm ah sam (maid).

I didn't say Happy Birthday to him don't know why a bit weird i guess.

Tmr back to sch again with tutorials, lectures and projects! HAIZ...

HaPPy NeW YeaR!

2005-02-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

Eve of Chinese New Yr. Each yr getting boring and boring and there is no chinese new year mood. this whole week no sch but there's work on the 2nd day of chinese new yr. nobody wan to work so i got to work but i must say it's really good money la.got to wake up like 830 in the morning and it's so early.spoil all my plans.some more thurs he need to go in malaysia, think can't meet up le.Haiz Sad. What to do, can't do anyting except wait wait and wait. Nvm la anywhere this week we'll spend the weekend together at chalet le never meet i also can't complain much.

HeRe CoMes mY WeeKeNd!

2005-02-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

Finally it's another weekend again. Whole week of ABACUS, projects and work. Luckily next week also don't need to go back to school.

I just quarrelled with him a few hours ago but we're fine already. I just don't understand why can't he come out a little earlier to meet me and why does he throw temper over little things? last time when we were together at the beginning he will volunteer to help me take things volunteer to fetch me. NOW? He ask me to take on my own! And ask me to go on my own! If only relationships can be the same as beginning forever.We quarrelled over small little things. Don't know he's the one getting lazy and take me granted or am I the one being unreasonable. Nowadays we always quarrel over small little things and it became a big thing eventually. As time goes by relationships become like this? Haiz hope even if this goes on it won't be bad for us.

For The Whole of This Week

2005-01-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

Whao Finally this week passed... So many things happening this week! Firstly our formation of F8 or 7788. Though Not really close with the F4 but after this trip i think they are really funny. Out of the 4 days i think thurs is the happiest day i had. In the morning i had class with TB17 and then we went for our dim sum 'eat all you can' buffet. Whao we ate like 24 baskets and almost 20 plates of dim sum, so full!But it could be because we laughed too much as we eat.Hanying said that chicken feet are dirty and somehow we linked to chicken wing which the chicken armpit!Whahaha.

Suddenly hanying sit behind me and told me something in the bus on our way to night safari. I didn't know what to do so I told hanying and chris to leave her alone 1st. then I asked her what happen after we change the next bus which we saw hakim terrance and dorcas on the bus. I thought it was because we passby a place which reminds her of something or a sms that made her think of something.

He's a jerk.His picture makes me think 'Who do think you are? A SAINT? Don't try to be somebody!' I'm not trying to be mean or biase, i just felt that way without knowing why. maybe it's because after hearing what people say and what happened between them. It's NOT fair to my friend! She's so nice to him and yet what she gets back is all these unhappiness! I hope she can find her Mr Right. That 'someone' must be trust worthy, treat her really nicely, cannot bully her and must be there for her without letting her feeling troubled. Haiz. I see her cry i also almost cried i felt so unfair for her because she has done nothing wrong! I don't know how to help her. Haiz.

Anyway we reached the night safari, and went for a buffet which cost us $21 yet we didn't eat much. We had lots of fun at the table and Alex could really eat A LOT! I think he ate quite a bit on Tues and Thurs cos both meals were buffet!1st our table has 12 person and the 4 of us ate alot of waffles and ice cream.Delicious! And that table took too much food and ended up playing Guessing the Number game to clear the food.And the Speaker came, mistook Guoli as the waiter. As he spoke, we had people from our table digging for ice cream and our table was the only table had so many people eating waffle ice cream. quite paiseh right.

Till now I not yet study for my LLM test.DIE! But i did a bit of my IBS, I'm so afraid of my test and presentation.

A DaY aGaiN

2005-01-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

Once again I was late for my lecture and the lecture only lasted half an hour i reach. Then came my break and was wondering what to have for lunch AGAIN! i went for my ATM lesson. So interesting today, can't help to feel like finishing it quickly. came home and went to work. Oh mY GoD so MaNy people again!