Today they went to find Ah Ma's Ling Wei went to wrong temple then everyone kept thinking where it is. Finally we found it. She bought this ling wei for herself almost 20years ago. I saw her tablet can't control myself tears dropped again.Since ytd 12pm i woke up i only slept 3 hours. I saw this hair dye she chose herself and say ' Ger ah next time I come U help me dye this colour ok I leave it here.' I was thinking she won't come back again. I can't get to sleep. I still cannot believe wat happened. Tmr will be the first day of funeral I will be there for whole 5 days awaiting for her to come back to talk to me to appear in my dream. Just so happen 49th day is Mooncake festival. I decided to give up celebrating my 21st birthday since she can't see me turning 21 yrs old. She's so young as a grandma, 61yrs old. I miss her every minute. I scared I can't take it when they cremate her. Cos I told them if possible don't cremate her but she has a ling wei already so it's her wish to be cremated I guess.
