Saturday, August 26, 2006
I spend these 5 days with her at the funeral. I stayed up every nite to burn incense and buy her favourite food for breakfast before i take a nap and help out in the afternoon. I couldn't sleep on the last nite I want to accompany her and waste no time on sleeping. I didn't come home. Even I sleep I wanna sleep beside her or at my uncle's house where she used to live. From the day I claim her body from Hospital till her body was cremated I was with her.Memories came back to me since I was small small girl when everyone though she was my mum actually she's my grandma. She was a young and beautiful grandma to me. Even till now she's still as beautiful. She told me would live to see me get married and give her great grandchildren. Lots of regrets what I didn't do when she came my house to look for me and spend the nite at my place. When I quarrel with my mum I would call and 'complain' to my grandma and she would come here quickly. She even cried with me. I miss her spending the nite at my place I nv showed her enough concern or had heart to heart talk. She so ke lian. I never cherish her now it's too late. Reach there 3pm and so fast they just show u they light up and cremate. too fast nobody told me was so fast. till now nobody dream of her yet I don't know why. Is it really her who passed away? Can someone tell me it's not her and she'll come back?
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